OBSESSED.

I can't quite put a word to describe what's been going on recently.
The only thing that goes thru my head each day is, I don't wanna stay on anymore.
2 years and 4 months, i've had many coming to me and saying 1year there is good enough. but i stayed on only because I felt there isn't anything that should make me leave.
It is only now am I starting to think it's time to go.
Times has changed. Many has moved on. The newer people are scary. We can't keep keeping the culture we want anymore. Maybe it's time to move on. After all, I desperately need to meet the bigger world.

but first, I need a job.

Smittened.

I just got back from a drink with "my best friend at work" - Alan at the St regis, and I thought I would want to write this down before i forget everything.

I'm "smittened". - in mandy's word.

In a way, it's good. I'm just so glad Alan didn't decide to go for the party at bellini's or some weird place with maura and ginny.. or some cheeena bar his friend was at.. cos i was really dependent on where he would decide to go. glad he choose to stay with me for just a drink before we headed home. but we had a good time over that one drink talking abt perspectives, life, work. I guess i really needed it. I must say, he did get me thinking about LOTS! and i'm kinda scared of what or where the future is heading. I mean, it's definately gonna be good, why not? but, which part of it do i wanna be part of?

well, in his words, he said, i'm hungry.. but i need to know how to satisfy my hunger and the right person to do that for me. I can't help but totally agree on that.

Well, yea.. i guess mandy's right. I'm smittened. that's the right word to use.

owells. i love alan. it's fun to just hang with him after... 6months since the last time we had drinks and i almost puked on his expensive shoes! *giggles*

owells, goodnite.

Being Neurotic

Either I'm very stressed, or I'm really very stressed.
Just don't come stepping on my tail now, I swear I will bite. Really.

I just screamed at my insurance agent over the phone this afternoon, just cos I was too uptight.

I just screwed a guy i absolutely do not know over MSN. He apparently added me on facebook without even knowing who he's adding.

I can't help it being stressed up with my exam on Tuesday and my mind is filled up pretty much with work, work and work.

I'm so stressed I even had a nightmare that the next day's the exam and I'm not prepared at all.

I really can't wait for exams to be over.
But I really need to do well this semester.

Randomly Random.

i love this picture. only thing that lag from it is that it was taken on my useless HTC touch camera phone and i had to have my settings accidentally set wrongly. there's no way i could capture a nicer or more similar image a second time in a better setting and resolution. darn. :(

my first time out on a shoot with the crew last month.

and likely will be my last too.

motivation from my boss. sure was helpful, though wee-bit sinful.

Will someone take me on a ride with breeze in this?

or THIS?

..so i can get out of this?!













PS: someone asked me, "how many capsules are there?", and i said, "do u think i care?" and he went, "you better! a tourist is bound to ask u that."
i just rolled my eyes.

Goodbye.

Yesterday marks the day my favourite Grand-aunt passed on.

Despite that fact that we were never close, we only get to see her once, at most twice a year, she still maintains my favourite since I was a little girl.

I guess it was because, despite her age, she was humourous and witty. She never remembers your name, and when she does, she makes fun of it.
Today as I tried to hunt down a picture of her, I can't find it anywhere. I don't really want to forget how she looks like. I guess I will really miss her especially with her absence when it comes to those once-a-year gathering or special occasions.

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and like as if Uncle's departure from the office didn't help enough, they are planning a final farewell drinks next week, cos this time, he's definately leaving the country and the only connection we are left of with him is, technology.

Pictures from the farewell at Balaclava on 11th April

My Rants. Overdue yet persisting.

I don't have freaking enough time for this cos I HAVE TO RUN TO CATCH MY SLEEP, BUT i just want to say this, i need to say this:

1. Don't f-ing tell me your "know-it-alls"! just get ur big arse moving and produce what you need to produce! PERIOD. PERIOD. PERIOD.

2. If you don't freaking have the passion for the brand, just go.

3. You don't have the resources, then work around it!

4. Will you rather have a clean record following at the back of you, or would you rather have people 'talking' about you when you one day 'gain your seat'?

5. When you hear about the way people talk about a particular someone, but your impression of him/her differs, will you let it affect your impression of him/her?

6. Will my option to sit on the fence affect anything?

I have decided, after all these, that i shall sit on the fence despite knowing my next two months will be nothing but chaos. BUT you know what? I shall sit on the fence of mine and let them unfold the story. I just want to sit and watch.

That's it. Good night.

Farewell, Uncle.. you'll be missed.

Am so gonna miss him!
Life at work will be chaos without him providing me with his expertise.
With him, i learnt what a producer is like.
Am so gonna miss him..... his crappiness, his expertise, his experience, his creativity, his temper!

I would remember the times he would walk to my desk and "Xiao Mei ah!... %&&*^*^*&" (how he starts scolding my clients).. with his loud voice that can be heard from the other end of the office.

I would remember how he would walk over to my desk and throw stop watches at me asking me to give them as gifts to my clients and teach them how short 30 seconds can be.

I would remember his lovely heart shape donut he got from Hong Kong for the girls on Valentine's Day.

I would remember how he always deprive me of my Wednesday Apples.

I would remember how we would hang at our "lao di fang" and bump into the world's last person we wanna see..
I would definately remember the ONE TIME we both got so pissed off with each other, obviously over work, just cos I didn't cc him on an email and how we didn't bother to talk for DAYS! - i was damn affected, i remember! LOL! but we both were childish! And he bought me sweets thereafter! HAHA!!!

Shit! the list can go on forever, i'm so gonna miss MY UNCLE!!

All we can ever say to him now of cos is, for the better future, all the best!